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[25 Feb 2004|03:01pm] |
8:51 PM 2/19/2004
Sittin' here listing to a new band.... underground band named Shadow Jade, staring at one of Malice's pics. Cass, I think it's name is... this song reminds me of this chara... the name of the song is Falling down.... some of this band's shit is damn good. Yuss.
7:28 PM 2/22/2004
Gonna upload a few pics... one is a new referance for Sol's face... because... I wasn't lying when I said you'll never see his face again.
The other is a few profiles of artists... NeoGeen, Zap, a failed attempt at auddry, and... um... I forget.... the new sol is in there... and a wyrmling... I think that's it... I dunno.
Frenzee's gonna make a ref sheet so I can draw him. n_n Yay. Gonna see if I can bug lyx to do the same.
Hey Noki, is there a ref sheet for yer chara?
Lessee... uh...
"Now I know I've got to BOOM BOOM run away, I've got to BOOM BOOM get away"
Heh... Know what I love about this song? It's a cover of a cover. (I'm listening to Manson's version, of course.) What I'm saying... is that Soft Cell did not write this song. Their infamous song was actually a cover of another song that was far slower... don't remember the original artist's name.
I've been switching between playing Pokémon Ruby and drawing... which is kinda funny. I'm switching the batteries between my GBA and my shitty ass CD player, because I only have two batteries ._. All hail the poor, (I actually have another pair, but I'm not opening them from the package yet.)
Anyway.
The music I've been listening to is a band called Shadow Jade; underground band you can download from Ampcast.com with NO FUCKING POP-UPS or payment involved. I selected around 13 of their songs, and threw in this Manson song for good measure. :p
....Aw fuck, I just realized I just missed the new simpsons episode. ><; (Something I've sorta recently gotten into; watching the simpsons.) To give you an example on how long the simpsons have been airing, they've been on EVERY NINTENDO PLATFORM save three: GBA (yet), N64 (as far as I know), and Gameboy Color. That's fucking extensive.
Jesus Christfuck this entry came out a hella' lot longer than I thought it would ^^;
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[10 Sep 2003|03:27pm] |
I... am in so much fucking pain.
I hate this. >
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[21 Aug 2003|07:13pm] |
Uhhh.....
Oh shit. I have no idea what's going on anymore... I swear my mind's been rotting for years, and now my body's doing the same...
I don't even know what i'm saying...
I'm... seriously confused... over nothing and everything at the same time...
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[23 Jul 2003|04:19pm] |
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I took the What Mythological Creature Are you? test by
![[info]](http://piktures.deadjournal.com/userinfo.gif) peacefulchaos !
I agree... If I'm not mistaken, Chimeras were known for their chaos... which perfectly discribes my emotional states ^^;
Speaking of which... remember how I said I have too moods, one being depressed and the other being spontanious idiocy?
I'm the latter today ^^
I wanna draw something with a hamster and a potato peeler!
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[17 May 2003|07:02pm] |
....I really don't know what to say... or post... or whatever...
....last week was the second full week of therapy... so now I'm going only 3 days a week instead of 5...
....and I keep feeling worse.....
Every session I was in went the same way... I stared at my feet, listening to what the others had to say... (it was/is group therapy, I suppose I forgot to mention that...) Whenever I was talked to, I would mumble an answer, then go back to staring at my feet...
....I feel so alienated from these people, even the ones that are in here for depression... because each and every one of them is at least twice my age, but mainly because all of them have at least one point in their life when they felt happiness, no matter how brief, that they can look back on and hold on to.
I... don't.
I've been like this since I was four. FOUR YEARS OLD. I have no such memories of happiness and joy and bliss... if they even existed, they've long been forgotten.
So... I have nothing. I am nothing. Go me.
Sigh.
I also feel depressed about actually leaving the treatment, dispite how much I hate it... because I haven't learned a thing... nor have I felt any better....
.....on a lighter note, I actually finished my first commision... actually, it's my third, but it's the first I've actually completed... got $20 for it... and I feel like I ripped the guy off... and I hate myself for it....
Sigh....
I'm slowly become alienated from just about everything I hold dear... I haven't spoken to any IRL freinds in weeks... probobly months... and that's even worse than you think; i only have about three....
.....and to top it all off, I'm becoming alienated from my freinds across the internet... because of my constant piss-and-moaning I do in my journals, probobly....
....christ... I hate this...
I actually felt content for about a minute or two earlier this morning... not happiness, of course... but for one breif moment, everything was okay... I knew my life sucked and all, and that I have no future, but it just didn't matter then....
The feeling has long since left me... I want it back...
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[15 May 2003|04:44pm] |
I am the artist formerly known as Slash Manson.
I am not Prince.
I am an idiot.
I am not a hippy.
I hate nearly everything.
Squee.
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